7-year closure

July 2021, winter NZ.
The… 3rd winter now.
4th if you consider the first one from 7 years ago.

Talking about 7 years ago, that’s the thing.
2014.

Back in July I wouldn’t even write stuff.
I wouldn’t even track stuff…
Would I?
…

Well, the travel blog… some vids…
And the general intention has always been there.

The self-reporting was about to start later that year.

The point of this one is that it’ll be quite a divisor…

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“…Retain on talking about the subject…”

See… even that’s is new…
At the same time back to the roots of meta-language…
And the messiness.

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Although the pressure has changed.
7 years. Age. Learning after grown up.

One might think you wouldn’t change as much.
One being me, of course.

But switches can still switch…

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There isn’t the need of committing to report or to excel at it…
Especially cause any kind of reporting is authentic if so.

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There is no pressure on frequency…
There is no expectation…
Even the old burnout maybe is… if not gone, contained?

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There used to be this massive craving…
Trying to hold and control Time and Life.
Synthesising cycles…

Was quite intense. Was quite growthful.
Fruitful, productive, effective…
Costful.

Taught me a lot.
But… whatever.

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Letting go, that’s the thing.
What else to do…?

Plans are blocked, life is uncertain…
Cycles end, some people won’t budge…

Indifference.
Idleness.
Carelessness…

Maybe.

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What about regret and all those fears?

Yeah, good one…
I reckon it’s just ‘fuck it’…
You do what you can or that you think you have to.

Shit will happen, that sucks, and in many times you can’t do anything about it.
So, fighting it is just a waste of energy and Time.

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You might regret it?

Possibly…
Probably?
Possibly…

But that’s the most sensible thing available.

Especially cause if you push too hard you also lose it…
And if you lose it, well…

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Interesting, ay?

Don’t know if it’s clear enough.

But I hope that that fits as answers and clarifications for the 2014’s wonderings.